To have an autistic daughter and to be in a lonely unsupported world is the most painful. I don’t have that support that I craved for more since I started my single motherhood journey 4 years ago. It had been a very hard and difficult journey and it will get harder I know like right now. My daughter is growing and it seems now she has a voice she is even more difficult. She is so physically and mentally strong and she knocks me for six. Apart from God whom I speak to all the time and my dead father, I don’t think anyone truly understands my plight, I am in agony mentally and then it eats at me physically too. I must be very strong as I persevere no matter how hard it gets. I still push myself to carry on because those babies really depend on me. It hurts a lot though that I am alone. I cry almost everyday because I just often want a hug or just to be asked if I am ok? and if I need any help. I am left alone to just carry my cross, and my cross I will surely carry very well until my demise. I am proud of myself in spite of my void, pain and struggle. I am all alone and it is not easy especially with the daily challenges I face with my beautiful autistic princess. God is indeed and forever my strength. I shall carry on and be as strong as I can. Alone as with no support only makes me stronger and so I can be supportive to others who have no one too.