I am on a mission…Autism Awareness

What do I think I am going to achieve?

When it comes to #Autism I am most certain that I am on a mission and this journey, started when I realised that my daughter was sent to me for a reason….

She was sent to me and the world for a crucial reason…to educate, to elevate and most importantly to love unconditionally…without judging!

I was shouting from the roof top yesterday  (At a particular TK Maxx store, London)…

So after school, we all went to get a few bits…you can never plan for it or predict it…

We had food first, our moods were all great…then we ventured into the big store…the huge lion’s denπŸ™ˆπŸ™‰πŸ™Š

Sofia kept on touching (she can’t keep her hands still and to herself) her siblings touched a few items too…I was scared something would break! And besides when we are in shops I always say to my babies “look but don’t touch” So I continuously asked them all to not touch…but only Sofia resisted…

Well well well…all hell broke loose in a matter of seconds and before I knew it, I began preaching to much ignorance (breaks my heart this world)…

She refused to refrain, and even though I know it is hard for her to as it’s a part of her…unfortunately in society she has to conform, otherwise she will be labelled and rejected! And besides she will be breaking everything! 

Not whilst I am alive….

I am on a misson, trust me…I have to help her understand, persevering always! 

So at the point of analysing and deciding what lesson to teach her, I decided that I will not be buying her what she wanted because she refuses to stop touching what she isn’t supposed to touch…

Oh my, the complete attack, she chased me around the shop, she hit me, she threatened me, screaming on top of her lungs…”No I want my sausage now” “you meanie” “I hate you” “I want to run away from you”…oh my the list is endless…

But by now the whole world is watching, faces like wet fish…no compassion, no understanding…just complete ignorance…you are being judged by those looks..well by now I don’t actually care…but I got more upset because my sister who was with us, and 8 months pregnant was also upset from all the stares and glares…the laughing and sniggering…wow such heart breaking ignorance in 2017! The world needs educating…

So I went on one! 

Sorry but no in between with me, I was speaking to the world now…”don’t stare it is rude and unpleasant” “such ignorance” “no one asks you if you are ok? Or if the child is ok?” “Don’t worry, carry on shopping…she is fine” “doing alot better than most of you” “if a child was blind, deaf in a wheelchair you will understand, but when it is a mental disability you don’t” “watch me hard, and learn from me”

This is so sad, people will watch her and laugh not realising that her little mind is in turmoil, she can’t stop when she gets in that zone…she has so much going on and this her way of expressing (at the moment).. she is 7 in a week but acts like she is 2…but more shocking as she doesn’t look 2, she looks 10 and speaks like 16…

I am not going to make my life easier or the world’s just to have peace by giving in…unfortunately the reality of life and society doesn’t accept such behaviours as she grows into teenagehood and adulthood….so I am not going to raise her with the delusion, that her behaviour is acceptable…I am basically going to help and direct her no matter how hard it gets…

Yes she is high functioning Autistic, and she has her challenges at 7 (acts 2 when melting) and she is still finding her self… but I am not going to play that game…

I am blessed with her for a reason, I am on a mission amd that is to be real and to share my world…even if I make a 5% impact to “reduce ignorance for hidden disabilities” then I have done my bit! 

But forward and upwards I go with my world…I am determined and I will never ever give up the struggle.πŸ•ŠπŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™πŸ’™


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