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Before and Now…

Before children, I had amazing ideas…and I still have amazing ideas…

But something had to give…my children came along and they became my now, my everything…

I had so many revelations, and I still do…

My children come first, I am grateful for the opportunity that motherhood has given me…

I won’t lie, in the beginning it was manic…I would often worry back then about all my amazing ideas and plans…and really panic about never moving ahead with them…

But my babies were more important, I just consciously decided to “put them first, and believed that the rest will follow”…

Here I am now and the rest has continued to follow…6 years on…

I have immensed my soul in my blessings and I discovered my greatest calling…and beyond 

What I am here for, now this is a real life story…Now in all the apparent struggles…I found myself and off I go with her…

The amazing cycle of life, what you thought you knew before, isn’t what you know now…

The wave at the moment…

I get this feeling at least once a month, feelings in different propotions. I get completely full, my mind overflows. I analsye this, and discern what I think relevant….but it all comes down to the most important, the power of the mind.

I am a thinker and a speaker, but only time has taught me that I can think whatever but can’t speak whatever.

I am on this life journey and the wave changes periodically. For the first time since I can recall, the period of my life finally feels good…

I am much more stronger, in my self and how I can truly be myself. The most I can and have done is to change the ways that didn’t favour my life…

I can honestly appreciate all that has been, praying constantly that I can also appreciate all that will be…

So my energy gets channeled according to my wave, so I can be in calmness and tranquility as this life throws me wherever it wants to.❤

When the time comes…

There is nothing you can do about “timing”…

By now, I am a firm believer in “there is time for everything under the sun, moon and stars”…

Every season in our lives, comes and goes as it is supposed to….it is how we deal with the season that truly matters.

I am reflecting everyday, looking at my very own self in the mirror and seeing all my shades…

I stood up for myself in the most unbelievable way on Monday, I mean even to my own self this was a revelation! Completely shocking!

Not in the normal way that I would stand up for myself. In the past it would have been wholeheartedly, with emotions all over the place… But this time it was more realistically…with my head and then my heart was at peace!

I see a pattern, my strength growing in abundance. I am actually happier, because I deserve to be just that….happy, with myself and in my very own skin…

It is a great feeling…I don’t have to be complacent, I have to put my beautiful soul first. I must indeed find solace in my growing strength, letting my beauty shine through without any painful effort…

My time is here, time for me to be exactly who God intended. Time and place for my life🕊

Always keep it moving…

No matter how many times I fall…I will pick myself up, and keep moving…

To even imagine the pain…unbearable pain, embedded within my soul, deeply sanctioned…but I keep it moving…

I have always been a survivor and never a victim…I am still keeping it, on the move…appreciating all the lessons!

6 years ago, 9 years ago, 12 years ago…you couldn’t have ever told me I will still be on the move…in 2017!

The joy now is that the move is realised, the move is determined, the move is beautiful, the move has purpose, the move has unconditional love….and the irony was that, the move was always fighting for release…

Present Day…the move is beautiful, the move is elevating and the move allows complete contentment🕊🕊🕊

Temper Tantrum…

It always starts subtly….and then bang💣💣💣 goes the release…

What must be said, must be… especially when the bomb has exploded!

Not a good look, but from within it is a release….the fuse so short and then it has to be said…

Not always the best way to express but for so long this has been the only way to express….even claiming that this is the only way…this is me

Until the truth caught up, the one that wasn’t afraid to be honest and not make it into a personal attack…

The experiences in life has opened doors, so that she doesn’t feel so explosive…she can work on her temper tantrums…

She can face it now, openly honest about it, especially to herself…it is not a behaviour etched in her, but taught to her…she must fight even harder to change the cycle…

Don’t let your anger/temper get the best of you…🕊💚💙🌼

Mother on reflection…

Where do I start? It’s been another Mother’s Day….mine started and ended as usual, however I got a lovely surprise…breakfast in bed and 3 homemade cards….(priceless)…I still had a wonderful day as usual, just doing all the chores that make this little world of mine, go round… 

I cherish my beautiful and amazing children every single day…no matter how hard it gets single handedly…no matter how hard it can be (I shall never give in)…

I am more determined than ever as they are getting what I never had…

Your Mother is your mother, right? Well I may not be ready to write about my pain…but I choose to be a survivor and not a victim…especially when I was blessed with motherhood!

These beautiful souls deserve all the love and devotion I have, no matter what! I said, no matter the adversities…this is my motivation!

Can’t make excuses, because if you really felt and still feel the pain….you wouldn’t even wish it for anyone else…right Rebecca?

I have reflected, most especially for 8 years now…everytime, I end up with that same feeling…

The feeling that can never be understood, except if experienced… And until I am ready to write it out loud…then so it shall remain…deep inside, twisting me always! 

I shall use the best of myself and my energy to preserve their beautiful little souls…this is my revenge, for that pain must enventually disperse from me…

All that remains is thanking God, each and everyday for giving me another chance…a chance to see and grab life as it should be!

Complete and utter devotion to my gifts of all gifts on this fractured earth💐❤🕊

Because I have changed!

Maybe once upon a time I would have called you by now, messaged you and poured my heart out to you… 

Expressing how you made me feel that day…

But now things have really changed…I am not that ‘girl’ any longer…

You helped me become that ‘woman’! I don’t want to express myself to you…mainly because you should know me by now…

I could have questions, but I don’t think you have answers, I feel I already have my answers…throughout you gave me all the answers I needed…

You can’t provoke or antagonise me, because I won’t let you. No matter what you do, I will continue to pray for you.

I don’t have anything nice to say to you directly, so I say nothing at all..this is indeed my stance!!!

The free ones…

I am truly free…

I grow and evolve everyday…

It took so long  (it seems) but
intended that way…

Altered in anyway, I wouldn’t be here…

I have completely embraced ‘me’…

In life you must truly go through hardship to blossom…

Those of us that smile the most and push through the most…

Are the ones who have truly been through the most…

But in the end we are the free ones!

Freed my soul and now I fly🕊

What took you so long???

Well well…truth be told it all depends on the journey, the purpose! 

It has taken so long but not to dwell on the past or how long it took to get here…It just took the amount of time required as GOD intended…I strongly believe!

It has been a journey indeed, I have learnt you can either, learn or never learn. Change or never change…Openess has been the key to opening my door…

I can be so open, often I even shock myself…however I always feel free when I become more open and honest.

Honesty helps me, especially when I am being blunt about my own self! I put my hand up and stand accounted as I know I am only human and to live fully is now my ultimate purpose…

It doesn’t actually matter how long it has taken, what matters is that I totally get the message. 

For the length of time that has passed, and from all my self destructive ways…here I am and the world didn’t even see me coming…but here I am with all the time it has taken…

Here is to what is supposed to be, continue to enlighten me…my whole body, soul and mind in unison with what should be! 

#dowhatyoulovewithpassion always and forever❤❤❤❤❤❤