Tag Archives: life

Before and Now…

Before children, I had amazing ideas…and I still have amazing ideas…

But something had to give…my children came along and they became my now, my everything…

I had so many revelations, and I still do…

My children come first, I am grateful for the opportunity that motherhood has given me…

I won’t lie, in the beginning it was manic…I would often worry back then about all my amazing ideas and plans…and really panic about never moving ahead with them…

But my babies were more important, I just consciously decided to “put them first, and believed that the rest will follow”…

Here I am now and the rest has continued to follow…6 years on…

I have immensed my soul in my blessings and I discovered my greatest calling…and beyond 

What I am here for, now this is a real life story…Now in all the apparent struggles…I found myself and off I go with her…

The amazing cycle of life, what you thought you knew before, isn’t what you know now…

You never can tell…

With life and all its surprises…good or bad! You just can never tell…

When it will happen, or even how it will occur…unbeknown to you… 

The best way is to let it be, but in saying this…it’s easier said than done!!!

We want, we want but the want is always inevitable…

You can never tell…

Round and round we go…

Just like a roller coaster…

My head is spinning I feel nauseated…

I need to get off this terrible ride…

At first unbeknown to me, the idea of riding along sounded ideal…

Now we just keep going round the whole thing, continuously and I can’t take it anymore…

I think I don’t move fast enough, because I am on this rollercoaster of a joke I call life!

Flying solo…

I am free, well I feel free…mentally I have the power to set my mind free…

A lesson learned well after, you see in this very moment…I am faced with many actions by others, intended to disrupt me…but I have learned a few life lessons…

I am not allowing the emptiness of others drain my full cup…

It shouldn’t be a battle…it should just be easy! Easy as it is now, for me to be free…flying free and solo! 

I won’t join the bandwagon, I won’t stoop low….I am standing with my head up my darling๐Ÿ’Ÿ๐Ÿ•Š

My time will come…

Yesterday whilst reading my daily devotion, I came across this amazing teaching:  “FOCUS ON WHAT REALLY MATTERS”! 

Indeed this is the whole point…blessed and content with all that I have and that is what truly matters…

I believe that the time for me to evolve further with my writing will come. I am passionate about expressing myself…and learnt lately come 2017, that my very own self needed polishing!

I am working with myself, ensuring that I am focused. Because this journey was never planned…but my focus was displaced…until I became a mother!

Oh yes, this was my calling. I never envisioned my life now, I had other ideas…so I strongly believe that there is time for everything under the sun, moon and stars…for as long as God keeps me. 

Patience and perseverance…from the depths of my heart comes this message…. Rebecca, focus on your blessings…don’t fret about all the gifts you have. Use your talents to nurture yourself, let your children learn from you…

Stay awake and stay true!…because time is of the essence. 

The wave at the moment…

I get this feeling at least once a month, feelings in different propotions. I get completely full, my mind overflows. I analsye this, and discern what I think relevant….but it all comes down to the most important, the power of the mind.

I am a thinker and a speaker, but only time has taught me that I can think whatever but can’t speak whatever.

I am on this life journey and the wave changes periodically. For the first time since I can recall, the period of my life finally feels good…

I am much more stronger, in my self and how I can truly be myself. The most I can and have done is to change the ways that didn’t favour my life…

I can honestly appreciate all that has been, praying constantly that I can also appreciate all that will be…

So my energy gets channeled according to my wave, so I can be in calmness and tranquility as this life throws me wherever it wants to.โค

A new dawn, a new day…

Yes and so it shall be…

I have natutally been feeling so good lately…

Got rid of something that wasn’t good for me…and now I feel amazing!

I have been home, enjoying redecorating…enjoying my babies…enjoying my new work contract…

I will write about work eventually, but right now I feel so alive…so grateful to be here this morning again for a new day…

I am happy and blessed and I know foremost acknowledgement goes to GOD Almighty! I am in tune and in line and it feels amazing!

Forget about tomorrow and even yesterday, just focus on today…

Here are a few bible verses that have been so helpful lately! The bible is such an amazing book…

“I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten– the great locust and the young locust, the other locusts and the locust swarm.” Joel 2:25

“So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.” Hebrews 10:35-36

May God be with you all, today and always ๐Ÿ•Š๐Ÿ•Š๐Ÿ•Š๐Ÿ•Š

Always keep it moving…

No matter how many times I fall…I will pick myself up, and keep moving…

To even imagine the pain…unbearable pain, embedded within my soul, deeply sanctioned…but I keep it moving…

I have always been a survivor and never a victim…I am still keeping it, on the move…appreciating all the lessons!

6 years ago, 9 years ago, 12 years ago…you couldn’t have ever told me I will still be on the move…in 2017!

The joy now is that the move is realised, the move is determined, the move is beautiful, the move has purpose, the move has unconditional love….and the irony was that, the move was always fighting for release…

Present Day…the move is beautiful, the move is elevating and the move allows complete contentment๐Ÿ•Š๐Ÿ•Š๐Ÿ•Š

Temper Tantrum…

It always starts subtly….and then bang๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ goes the release…

What must be said, must be… especially when the bomb has exploded!

Not a good look, but from within it is a release….the fuse so short and then it has to be said…

Not always the best way to express but for so long this has been the only way to express….even claiming that this is the only way…this is me

Until the truth caught up, the one that wasnโ€™t afraid to be honest and not make it into a personal attack…

The experiences in life has opened doors, so that she doesn’t feel so explosive…she can work on her temper tantrums…

She can face it now, openly honest about it, especially to herself…it is not a behaviour etched in her, but taught to her…she must fight even harder to change the cycle…

Don’t let your anger/temper get the best of you…๐Ÿ•Š๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’™๐ŸŒผ