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A new dawn, a new day…

Yes and so it shall be…

I have natutally been feeling so good lately…

Got rid of something that wasn’t good for me…and now I feel amazing!

I have been home, enjoying redecorating…enjoying my babies…enjoying my new work contract…

I will write about work eventually, but right now I feel so alive…so grateful to be here this morning again for a new day…

I am happy and blessed and I know foremost acknowledgement goes to GOD Almighty! I am in tune and in line and it feels amazing!

Forget about tomorrow and even yesterday, just focus on today…

Here are a few bible verses that have been so helpful lately! The bible is such an amazing book…

“I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten– the great locust and the young locust, the other locusts and the locust swarm.” Joel 2:25

“So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.” Hebrews 10:35-36

May God be with you all, today and always πŸ•ŠπŸ•ŠπŸ•ŠπŸ•Š

Ventures with my children…autism in tow!

You forget that a time always comes, when you completely feel overwhelmed and maybe a scream or cry would help…but not when its around a high functioning autistic child!

Last few days have been hellish! I hardly take my daughter to crowded areas (shopping centres)…

But I decided on Monday, we’d go and buy some school things. We got there, and then hell broke lose! Everything she liked, she picked and I said no to buying and her response was shocking but yet expected! 

She doesn’t understand “authority” how dare you say no to her? She starts to say all sorts…you are a “meanie” “I hate you” “you don’t love me” “you are diarrhoea”….my goodness the abuse was endless…and I have two other children with me, just quietly looking in disbelief!

But hey this is what we deal with when we are out…she doesn’t have boundaries or even a filter…she just loses it, because she can’t get her own way!

I felt like crying, I felt like breaking into pieces….but I remained disciplined, learnt from the last time. Still learning everyday… I have to be in control, not allowing her to get to me….not allowing the world to get to me, because all eyes are on us now…

It can be a lonely and a sad world, when you are in that moment with this child…no compassion…you soon realise that, you have to be it all! 

It didn’t stop there, it is a pattern…you say no and she just doesn’t seem to accept it!

This is my battle, my challenge…to help her to understand “authority” to accept “adult instructions”…to not internalise and react when she doesn’t get everything…this is the most difficult part…

I am unbiased however, she is mine and I love her no matter what. My focus is to continue to love her unconditionally, but at the same time show her the errors of her ways…but what are her ways at 7? I don’t have the answers…I just have perseverance. 

May God continue to guide my struggles and may our ventures continue regardless, because we have others to consider! 

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Mother on reflection…

Where do I start? It’s been another Mother’s Day….mine started and ended as usual, however I got a lovely surprise…breakfast in bed and 3 homemade cards….(priceless)…I still had a wonderful day as usual, just doing all the chores that make this little world of mine, go round… 

I cherish my beautiful and amazing children every single day…no matter how hard it gets single handedly…no matter how hard it can be (I shall never give in)…

I am more determined than ever as they are getting what I never had…

Your Mother is your mother, right? Well I may not be ready to write about my pain…but I choose to be a survivor and not a victim…especially when I was blessed with motherhood!

These beautiful souls deserve all the love and devotion I have, no matter what! I said, no matter the adversities…this is my motivation!

Can’t make excuses, because if you really felt and still feel the pain….you wouldn’t even wish it for anyone else…right Rebecca?

I have reflected, most especially for 8 years now…everytime, I end up with that same feeling…

The feeling that can never be understood, except if experienced… And until I am ready to write it out loud…then so it shall remain…deep inside, twisting me always! 

I shall use the best of myself and my energy to preserve their beautiful little souls…this is my revenge, for that pain must enventually disperse from me…

All that remains is thanking God, each and everyday for giving me another chance…a chance to see and grab life as it should be!

Complete and utter devotion to my gifts of all gifts on this fractured earthπŸ’β€πŸ•Š