Tag Archives: love

I love him just like that…

I love him so much, just like that…

From the moment I met him, I felt it…

It wasn’t like I had a crystal ball to forsee…I could just see…

Through his eyes I saw his soul…

He became my friend, my confidant, my soul mate…

We laugh together, we cry together, we go through it all together…

Now I definitely believe that there is power in real love and it lingers forever…

Our love is real, we know that our love is ours…

Nothing comes easy, you have to take the good and the bad….and let the experiences of life teach you!

I love him with all his flaws and he loves me and mine, just like that ❤❤❤

I love you mummy…

These words are enough for me…

Uttered by their little mouths, their words dive deeply and linger always…

My beautiful children, so full of love…

Their words and actions amazes me everyday…

I am so blessed, and in them I see my absolute contentment…

They are growing so fast, so beautifully with hearts to match…

Simple ‘I love you mummy’ makes my little world go round and round regardless…

To have and to hold such love is beyond imagination…

This Love is real ❤❤❤

Weakness…My Love

When I love, I love hard…

When I start, I give my all…

Even if love grows and trust grows…I still enter completely…

No half measures, No games…just loving you hard!

I sleep well knowing that I love wholly…

I can’t change my beautiful soul, I can only recognize, accept and continually nurish my Love…

Ventures with my children…autism in tow!

You forget that a time always comes, when you completely feel overwhelmed and maybe a scream or cry would help…but not when its around a high functioning autistic child!

Last few days have been hellish! I hardly take my daughter to crowded areas (shopping centres)…

But I decided on Monday, we’d go and buy some school things. We got there, and then hell broke lose! Everything she liked, she picked and I said no to buying and her response was shocking but yet expected! 

She doesn’t understand “authority” how dare you say no to her? She starts to say all sorts…you are a “meanie” “I hate you” “you don’t love me” “you are diarrhoea”….my goodness the abuse was endless…and I have two other children with me, just quietly looking in disbelief!

But hey this is what we deal with when we are out…she doesn’t have boundaries or even a filter…she just loses it, because she can’t get her own way!

I felt like crying, I felt like breaking into pieces….but I remained disciplined, learnt from the last time. Still learning everyday… I have to be in control, not allowing her to get to me….not allowing the world to get to me, because all eyes are on us now…

It can be a lonely and a sad world, when you are in that moment with this child…no compassion…you soon realise that, you have to be it all! 

It didn’t stop there, it is a pattern…you say no and she just doesn’t seem to accept it!

This is my battle, my challenge…to help her to understand “authority” to accept “adult instructions”…to not internalise and react when she doesn’t get everything…this is the most difficult part…

I am unbiased however, she is mine and I love her no matter what. My focus is to continue to love her unconditionally, but at the same time show her the errors of her ways…but what are her ways at 7? I don’t have the answers…I just have perseverance. 

May God continue to guide my struggles and may our ventures continue regardless, because we have others to consider! 

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World Autism Awareness Day 02.04.2017…My world everyday💙💙💙

Today and everyday is Autism awareness day…
Empowered with a life to share and to elevate oneself, and others along the path…
At first not easy, but as time has permitted  my understanding has been broadened…
Ignorance isn’t bliss! Especially when compassion is needed…
My stance with my autistic princess was to just listen to her alone…I mean to her alone! No Opinions from others, no Google, no Prayers for deliverance, no Books….just her nonverbal voice…
Yes what an amazing journey this is…everyday I learn a new way…she suddenly began to speak, took her a while compared to her twin….but when she has, she just does!
She never crawled, she just walked…she never practises…she just observes and then she blossoms…

She never babbled, she just spoke…she used her echolalia to practise and that was simply and still is her way…
She will write and read for you and you will  be in amazement…and she never learned phpnics in depth…her brain develops in a more unique way! She gets it immediately.

She is so intelligent, she has an amazing memory and she is extremely creative.
Never a conformist…just her beautiful amazing self.

A blessing upon this earth. A child specially sent from God…to test me, to test the world.

The tests have been so many and so difficult but yet I have persevered, because I love my daughter who has Autism and with all her challenges…I love her more because she is truly my teacher.

Let us embrace our children, let is be open and not ignorant…

You are highly blessed to have a child with a special need as you see life for what it really is.

Don’t wallow and feel sorry for yourself or for them…turn it all into a positive and see where it takes you…beyond your own imagination!

Love Autism, Share Autism 💙💙💙💙💙

Oh but he loves me…

What is the definition of love? Well love has many different meanings for many different people!

You cannot possibly put love in one place and say that’s it! Right?

When you are so dysfunctional and absorbed in your own meaning of love, you can become lost in what you call love…

Love has many limits and can have no boundaries…look at love from a domestically violent relationship!

When he can easily put you down and hold you down….How can that be love? He can’t even give you a real definition of himself other than what he knows…

For some men, it is just the way to be. It is deep rooted…he had no idea that the love he grew up around, was just one meaning for him and many like him…

He doesn’t even realise that what he is doing is wrong, in his eyes it is the only way he knows…how can he ever see that he is the one with the problem? After all, you are the problem…

Indeed what has love got to do with it? He is so apologetic afterwards, he said it’s because you made him angry…he lost his temper…well he should control his temper…but he doesn’t know how to! 

It’s because he loves you so much, that is his reason for his anger…it is all your fault! 

But of course it isn’t your fault…it is his actions that define your love…you love him so much that you accept even the greatest flaw…might be the fact that your love has it’s own meaning too…

But oh, he loves me…But oh! Do you love yourself more? Or do you feel loving him unconditionally defines your love? 

My Friends…My Sisters

I have some amazing women in my life, I am grateful and honoured to be blessed like so…

My friendships are all important to me, extremely important to me…

I don’t do it half heartedly, I do it wholeheartedly. I Treat all my friends exactly how I like to be treated…with love and devotion.

I have many years invested in love and friendship and everyday is friendship day to me…

The friends that live so far away from me in Germany, Africa, Holland, Spain, USA… the friends that live a few miles away right now and many more miles away…how blessed I am🕊

The distance between us means nothing, we grow stronger in love and friendship everyday… my friends are the rainbow…so colourful and bright! Years and years of our relationships…

Your friends should be your confidants, the people you can trust wholly. The friends that you can call at any time, tell anything to…those are my friends…

I love all my beautiful, strong, loving, compassionate, kind and absolutely amazing women…I appreciate you always💐🌹🌺🌷🌼🌻😘😘😘😘😘😘

God bless my true hearts ❤❤❤🕊❤❤❤

International Women’s Day 2017…

To be a strong, beautiful, loving woman at this time makes me grin with the biggest of smiles…

My heart smiles the most because I am a proud mama…My babies turned me into a real woman…

A woman who carries and shows her heart without much anticipation…though, often life experiences teach me valuable lessons all the time…

I am blessed to be alive today, to be an example, strength and guidance for my beautiful children…

I have not just words to prove my worth, I have living proof (praise to GOD Almighty) always and forever…

My pain and disappoinents have brought me this far, I don’t carry the past. I let go and forgave  so much and that alone has catapulted me beyond my wildest…

My babies complete my world, I am a woman today and always simply because of them…my love runs deeper than mere words!

I am not thriving on earthly possessions or even achieving material or status…I am thriving as a woman, because I completely understand what it means to be a real woman, strong, loving, content and devoted! 

Happy International Women’s Day to real Women 😚🕊🌹💐🌺🌻🌼🌷

Don’t forget you are human…

When you are high up there, you don’t forget you are human….you have finally made it! Status, money, all you have dreamt of has come to pass…you don’t have those worries any longer…so ot seems!

You have the ultimate status, but once upon a time you too struggled…but now you forget…

But suddenly you have it all…don’t forget you are still human. When you come across others, especially those that remind you of where you once were…don’t forget you are still human…please! 

You could be reminded again…that you are only human…

You should still elevate others, still appreciate the little people (as you now see them). The status you now have, with your power so plentiful…however remember that nothing lasts forever!

Treat others like they are human, just like you. 

Peace and Love, Humans 🕊

For what I do for you, I also do for myself!

An inspiring few weeks for me personally, complete emancipation of my very being…

As a growing woman, I exude what I must at this present time.

Always been a woman’s woman. To love and to encourage you is what I always want to do.

I don’t function on negativity, my stance is to potray love and devotion to you. As my sister, my friend…my stranger. Even more so when I don’t actually know you.

I just want to be there for you, to love you, to encourage you, to set you up…because whatever I am giving to you, I am ultimately giving myself.

I don’t compete with you, I don’t envy you or ever wish bad for you. I just want you to grow and be as happy as intended. 

Your joy is my joy, hold your head right up high and see that you are beautiful and capable of living your own purpose. 

Finding you, helps me to find me too. As for trying times, don’t fret on the miniscule things…focus on elevating each other. In time you will see that this is the true definition of your own soul! 

Let Love be the winner in all that you see, in all that you do and go through. Amen🕊